It's not the end of the world My cries will go unread. This very day I had a conversation about exactly this and I made the biggest f****** I could have made today actually that's a lie I could have crashed my car on the way to work but that didn't happen. This day was a day where at work with a coworker we had a conversation about what happens when you accidentally take a shoot without the card in the camera. But this pains me to my utter core not because it was an easily preventable mistake that I should have already learned from but I guess I haven't been hurt by it this much so I guess now I'll be extra careful because this very day. Yes I'm tired yes I just got back from a 5-hour shifted a new job yes I am a little stoned. So as I turn my camera on as I press the small button on the bottom to replay the photos I am met with four words that will most likely haunt me for the rest of my life. It was somewhere in this midst of euphoria and joy and accomplishment that I chose to review Michael s now this would be this would be fairly fruition as looking at them on a camera screen is not nearly as valid as looking at them on a computer screen you can actually see the detail it actually tell that these photos are in fact in focus.
Let me tell you the relief I felt laying down on this couch feeling as though I had just captured something significant not significant to the world but significant to me I sat here relieved I sat here accomplished I sat here feeling as if I had just done the one thing cuz I've been trying to do for a long time.
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What happened was that I was walking by I had the idea for a photograph and I chose to attempt to take this photograph and with much trial and with much error I managed to do so I managed to take several enough that surely one of them surely one out of these 20 that I have just taken would come out at least good to the idea that was in my at least good enough for that. If there is a single human being who cares in his life or her life to read this then I am truly an utterly sorry for you but what I am about to describe is shall we say the worst type of pain someone like me can feel and by someone like me I mean a photographer who feels too artistic for his own good. No it should be noted that this photograph it's idea shall we say as this photograph does not nor will it exist. Today I spent more time than I care to admit in my current state and more energy than I possibly should but that my artistic ass would allow on a single photograph just single photograph.
I'm an agony and I could not possibly think of what to do in my sheer pain in this manner than to post on reddit. I have been thoroughly and utterly defeated.